• Jim Burgoon on Mental Illness, Loss, and Trusting God When God Says No | STF Podcast Ep. 17
    Apr 3 2026

    In this episode, Lara Silverman welcomes Jim Burgoon—strategist for Faith-Driven Leaders, host of the Unshakeable Life Podcast, military veteran, and former pastor—to share his “faith in the furnace” story, centered on his wife’s decades-long battle with four major mental illnesses, recurring hospitalizations, and a near-suicide attempt while raising children and leading in ministry. Jim describes the church’s frequent lack of support and stigma around mental illness, his 2017 decision to step down and relocate for better care, and how surrendering control to Christ sustained him. The conversation addresses asking “why,” lament, and rejecting prosperity/word-of-faith formulas, emphasizing that God’s “no” can be about timing or eternity. Jim also recounts losing his mother and sister to cancer in 2023, a suicide attempt by his wife, and his own chronic illness, highlighting hope, truth over feelings, and trusting God’s goodness through suffering.

    Jim's Bio

    Jim Burgoon is a strategist for faith-driven leaders, podcast hosts, and
    content creators. He is the host of The Unshakable Life Podcast. A
    military veteran who is certified as both a Leadership Development
    Coach and DISC consultant, Jim helps leaders stop hiding and start
    building. He serves the "forgotten but called"—entrepreneurs and
    leaders who are tired of hustle culture and ready to lead from a place
    of rest. Jim’s approach shifts the focus from "earning your worth" to
    stewarding your calling. Whether he is coaching on content strategy,
    leadership development, or deep spiritual health, his mission is simple: to help you build a purpose-rooted life that stands firm when
    the world gets chaotic.

    Chapters
    00:00 Welcome and Guest Intro
    01:41 Jim's Furnace Story
    03:18 Diagnosis Not Identity
    06:05 Church Stigma and Support
    08:59 2017 Turning Point Move
    10:33 Hope and Surrender
    13:15 No Dead Ends With God
    15:31 Why Questions and Sin
    18:12 Healing Theology Myths
    24:46 When God Says No
    28:13 Jeremiah 29 Context
    31:07 Mom and Sister Cancer
    33:40 Grief Without Bitterness
    34:14 Obedience to Resign
    35:00 Hardest Year Unfolds
    36:06 Cascade of Loss
    37:05 Anger and Trust
    38:01 Discipline or Comfort
    40:25 Lament as Worship
    42:14 Sovereignty and Evil
    45:39 Grief and Joy Together
    47:42 Eternity and Salvation
    50:13 Suffering Opens Hearts
    54:08 Redefining Good
    56:38 Sanctification and Fruit
    01:01:11 Chronic Illness Endurance
    01:04:27 Surrender and Resets
    01:07:19 Caregiving by Truth
    01:10:22 Final Encouragement

    Resources and Links:

    Jim's podcast, The Unshaken Life

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    PODCAST DESCRIPTION:

    Welcome to the Singing Through Fire podcast! I’m your host Lara Silverman, and this is where we:

    • Worship when it hurts
    • Discuss hot takes from the furnace of affliction
    • Explore a biblical theology of suffering with a side of sass and sarcasm

    From lamentations to laughter, this podcast is for anyone desperate for hope who has ever asked, "Why, Lord, why?”

    Don’t forget to follow/subscribe because I upload content every Tuesday and Friday!

    "For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all." 2nd Corinthians 4:17.

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    1 hr and 11 mins
  • Is God's Grace Really Sufficient? | STF Podcast Ep. 16
    Mar 31 2026

    In this episode of Singing Through Fire, Lara Silverman speaks to listeners who feel overwhelmed, afraid, and unsure they can keep going, and prays for God’s comfort. She challenges the idea that “God will never give you more than you can handle,” showing from Scripture that God sometimes allows burdens beyond our strength so we will rely on Him, citing Paul, Elijah, Job, Jeremiah, and even Jesus’ anguish before the cross. Lara centers the episode on 2 Corinthians 12:9—God’s grace is sufficient and His power is made perfect in weakness—along with other passages about God sustaining His people. She shares her testimony of being bedridden for years with severe vertigo, learning to depend on God one moment at a time, and describes God’s provision through timely verses, daily strength, and “rest stops.” She also recounts seeing God sustain her husband Matt through stage-four cancer, ending with hope in eternity and God’s promise to preserve believers’ faith to the end.

    Chapters
    00:00 Despair to Hope
    00:49 Prayer and Purpose
    01:33 God Gives More
    02:38 Biblical Overwhelm
    03:55 Grace Is Sufficient
    06:51 Paul’s Trials List
    08:33 Promises from Scripture
    09:58 Memoir Break
    11:08 My Bedridden Valley
    13:28 Manna Moment by Moment
    15:09 More Sustaining Signs
    18:14 Matt and Cancer Grace
    20:32 Rest Stops in Suffering
    22:23 When It Feels Abandoned
    24:17 Eyes on Eternity
    25:30 Final Encouragement

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    PODCAST DESCRIPTION:

    Welcome to the Singing Through Fire podcast! I’m your host Lara Silverman, and this is where we:

    • Worship when it hurts
    • Discuss hot takes from the furnace of affliction
    • Explore a biblical theology of suffering with a side of sass and sarcasm

    From lamentations to laughter, this podcast is for anyone desperate for hope who has ever asked, "Why, Lord, why?”

    Don’t forget to follow/subscribe because I upload content every Tuesday and Friday!

    "For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all." 2nd Corinthians 4:17.

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    27 mins
  • Finding Your Voice Again: Chronic Pain, Lost Identity, and Praying Scripture with Melissa McLaughlin | STF Podcast Ep. 15
    Mar 27 2026

    In this episode, host Lara Silverman continues the “Faith in the Furnace” series with Melissa McLaughlin, a writer, teacher, and speaker who retired early after debilitating chronic back pain from deteriorating discs forced her out of a beloved teaching career, exposing how much her identity was tied to work and capability. Melissa shares how suffering and dependence on others led her to rediscover her true identity as God’s child, even as she felt God’s silence and lost words to pray. She describes using Psalms and other passages as spoken prayers, collecting and rewriting verses into scripture-based prayers, and developing a prayer framework of praise, thanksgiving, confession, petitions, and ending in God’s strength, later shared in her book “In Dark of Night When Words Fail.” They discuss God’s sovereignty, spiritual warfare, eternal perspective, and Melissa’s second book, “The Whole Bible Devotional,” which helps readers see Jesus throughout Scripture.

    Chapters
    00:00 Show Intro and Guest
    02:39 Family Roots and Brother
    04:25 Teaching Calling and Career
    05:01 Back Pain and Retirement
    06:05 Chronic Pain Reality
    07:59 Identity After Job Loss
    14:16 Prayer When Words Fail
    18:19 Trusting Gods Love
    23:21 Obedience in Suffering
    26:35 Sovereignty and Sufficient Grace
    30:32 Eternal Good in Suffering
    32:04 Suffering That Serves Others
    33:09 Grace Through Letting Go
    36:55 Spiritual Warfare and Daily Trust
    39:49 Why Reliance Costs So Much
    43:02 Scripture Based Prayer Framework
    47:57 Sovereignty and Brother’s Suffering
    54:02 Heavenly Crowns and Eternal Rewards
    55:18 Training for Worship and Love
    59:06 Final Encouragement Hold On

    Resources and Links:
    Melissa's website
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    PODCAST DESCRIPTION:

    Welcome to the Singing Through Fire podcast! I’m your host Lara Silverman, and this is where we:

    • Worship when it hurts
    • Discuss hot takes from the furnace of affliction
    • Explore a biblical theology of suffering with a side of sass and sarcasm

    From lamentations to laughter, this podcast is for anyone desperate for hope who has ever asked, "Why, Lord, why?”

    Don’t forget to follow/subscribe because I upload content every Tuesday and Friday!

    "For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all." 2nd Corinthians 4:17.

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    1 hr and 1 min
  • God wants you weak but strong. WHAT?! | STF Podcast Ep. 14
    Mar 24 2026

    In this episode of Singing Through Fire, host Lara Silverman, wrestles with why God sometimes does not heal chronic pain and how Christians should respond when God calls them to stay in the storm rather than keep chasing the shore. Sharing her own experience of being led to accept a permanent neurological illness, she encourages listeners to grieve, keep praying for confirmation, and pursue surrender and contentment rooted in Scripture. The episode focuses on God’s purposes in weakness, arguing from multiple biblical passages that believers are created to depend on God, and highlighting 2 Corinthians 12 where Paul’s “thorn” remains so God’s power is displayed. She explains that weakness can glorify God, transform character, strengthen faith, and even advance the gospel through faithful suffering, while rejecting prosperity-gospel claims that lack of healing means lack of faith.

    Chapters
    00:00 God Wants You Weak
    01:07 Prayer and Setup
    01:27 When Healing Is No
    02:55 Acceptance and Grief
    04:31 Contentment in Pain
    07:25 Purpose in Suffering
    08:29 Break and Book Plug
    09:41 Scripture on Dependence
    12:53 Paul’s Thorn Explained
    15:50 Is God Egotistical
    19:04 Weakness Becomes Strength
    20:09 A Story of Not Being Healed
    23:35 Final Encouragement and Warning

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    PODCAST DESCRIPTION:

    Welcome to the Singing Through Fire podcast! I’m your host Lara Silverman, and this is where we:

    • Worship when it hurts
    • Discuss hot takes from the furnace of affliction
    • Explore a biblical theology of suffering with a side of sass and sarcasm

    From lamentations to laughter, this podcast is for anyone desperate for hope who has ever asked, "Why, Lord, why?”

    Don’t forget to follow/subscribe because I upload content every Tuesday and Friday!

    "For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all." 2nd Corinthians 4:17.

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    25 mins
  • Mary Balian on Loss and Finding Joy in Suffering | STF Podcast Ep. 13
    Mar 20 2026

    In this episode, host Lara Silverman continues her “Faith in the Furnace” series with guest Mary Balian, an Armenian American singer-songwriter dedicated to creating contemporary Armenian Christian worship music so Armenians can worship Christ in their own language. Mary shares her testimony of suffering and faith, including losing her father to a sudden heart attack at age 15 while performing CPR, and the bitterness, depression, and questions that followed without a strong church community until later finding deeper faith through Armenian Christian camp and church mentors. She also recounts her second daughter’s journey through pain, her NICU stay as a baby, and the resilience that led to major progress. Together they discuss lament, surrender, and eternal perspective.

    Chapters
    00:00 Welcome and Guest Intro
    02:18 Mary’s Father’s Death
    04:04 Faith Questions and Anger
    12:07 Eternal Perspective Shift
    13:41 Prosperity Myths and Cross
    16:37 Pregnancy Crisis and NICU
    19:01 Cerebral Palsy Diagnosis
    23:48 Surrender and Mental Health
    28:29 Nothing Wasted Redemption
    31:15 Humbled by Healing
    31:49 Holy Spirit Texts
    34:20 When God Feels Silent
    36:35 Empowering a Child
    40:02 Eternal Perspective Shift
    42:02 Verses for Low Days
    44:28 Surprised by Joy
    48:50 Doctrine of Rewards
    51:40 Community and Accountability
    54:42 Hope for Dad's Salvation
    57:09 Where to Find Mary
    58:41 Final Blessing and Sendoff

    Resources and Links:
    Mary's website

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    PODCAST DESCRIPTION:

    Welcome to the Singing Through Fire podcast! I’m your host Lara Silverman, and this is where we:

    • Worship when it hurts
    • Discuss hot takes from the furnace of affliction
    • Explore a biblical theology of suffering with a side of sass and sarcasm

    From lamentations to laughter, this podcast is for anyone desperate for hope who has ever asked, "Why, Lord, why?”

    Don’t forget to follow/subscribe because I upload content every Tuesday and Friday!

    "For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all." 2nd Corinthians 4:17.

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    59 mins
  • NO, God doesn't heal everyone....yet | STF Podcast Ep. 12
    Mar 17 2026

    In this episode of Singing Through Fire, Lara Silverman wrestles with a painful question many sufferers ask: if God is sovereign, why doesn’t He heal everyone? Drawing from her own eight-year battle with a rare neurological disease and the loss of her husband Matt to stage four cancer, she examines key biblical passages about healing, challenges prosperity gospel assumptions, and explains why unanswered prayers are not proof of weak faith. Lara emphasizes that God’s promises must be read in context and that God acts according to His will, not human timelines, while still being near to the brokenhearted. She encourages listeners to keep praying for healing, to submit to God’s will when healing doesn’t come, and to anchor hope in the certainty of complete healing and deliverance in eternity.

    Chapters
    00:00 Why God Won’t Heal Me
    00:45 Welcome and Opening Prayer
    01:35 Chronic Illness Reality Check
    04:08 God Is Sovereign Still
    06:23 Is God’s Will Healing
    08:23 Verses That Seem to Promise
    10:04 When God Says No
    12:13 Break and Book Mention
    13:29 Does God Want Suffering
    14:58 Promises Need Context
    17:16 Faith Isn’t a Guarantee
    19:22 Pray and Submit Anyway
    20:21 Ultimate Healing in Heaven
    22:56 Delivered From All Troubles
    23:41 God’s Love in the Fire
    27:09 Closing and Next Episode

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    PODCAST DESCRIPTION:

    Welcome to the Singing Through Fire podcast! I’m your host Lara Silverman, and this is where we:

    • Worship when it hurts
    • Discuss hot takes from the furnace of affliction
    • Explore a biblical theology of suffering with a side of sass and sarcasm

    From lamentations to laughter, this podcast is for anyone desperate for hope who has ever asked, "Why, Lord, why?”

    Don’t forget to follow/subscribe because I upload content every Tuesday and Friday!

    "For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all." 2nd Corinthians 4:17.

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    28 mins
  • Rick Cram: Chronic Pain, Resilience, and Hope in Christ | STF Podcast Ep. 11
    Mar 13 2026

    In this episode, Lara Silverman continues her “Faith in the Furnace” series with Rick Cram, a resilience coach and author who has lived with severe left-knee pain since a high school football injury 50 years ago. Rick recounts a long medical journey—multiple failed repairs, a total knee replacement at 40, and a 2019 partial revision that solved some issues but created new problems—leaving him with daily bursts of agony and ongoing exhaustion. He shares how his faith has shifted over time from anger and “why, God?” questions to a practiced life of intentionality, gratitude, and “productive lament,” anchored in God’s love, promises, and purpose. Lara and Rick discuss joy in suffering (not joy for suffering), God’s grace being sufficient, and how eternity strengthens hope. They also offer practical guidance for supporting sufferers through presence, understanding, and being a “holder of hope.”

    Chapters
    00:00 Meet Rick Cram
    03:24 Football Injury Origin
    06:11 Surgeries And Chronic Pain
    08:45 Joy And Resilience
    12:53 From Anger To Intentionality
    15:59 Love As Transformation
    20:15 Answering The Why
    24:34 Grace In Weakness
    26:11 Resilience In Exhaustion
    29:08 Character Growth Takes Time
    30:41 Praying Through Pain
    30:58 God’s Answered Prayers
    32:43 Carry Each Other’s Burdens
    34:03 What to Say to Sufferers
    35:10 Connection and Hope
    36:52 Eternity as Hope
    39:21 Sources of Hope and Resilience
    42:45 Joy as a Choice
    50:04 Renewing the Mind
    51:50 Long Term Perspective
    55:02 Hope Does Not Disappoint

    Resources and Links:
    Rick's website
    Rick's podcast

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    PODCAST DESCRIPTION:

    Welcome to the Singing Through Fire podcast! I’m your host Lara Silverman, and this is where we:

    • Worship when it hurts
    • Discuss hot takes from the furnace of affliction
    • Explore a biblical theology of suffering with a side of sass and sarcasm

    From lamentations to laughter, this podcast is for anyone desperate for hope who has ever asked, "Why, Lord, why?”

    Don’t forget to follow/subscribe because I upload content every Tuesday and Friday!

    "For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all." 2nd Corinthians 4:17.

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    56 mins
  • The Christian’s Sole Goal: Dying?!
    Mar 10 2026

    In this episode of Singing Through Fire, Lara explores God’s end goal for believers—not an easy, comfortable life, but sanctification: being conformed to the image of Christ. Walking through key passages like Romans 8:29, Luke 9:23, and Philippians 1:6, she explains that becoming Christ-like requires daily self-denial, crucifying the flesh, and surrendering personal rights and agendas to God’s will. Lara also unpacks how God often uses suffering as a refining fire to test faith, strip away idols, and form perseverance, character, and hope, emphasizing that this discipline is not punishment but loving transformation in preparation for eternity. She clarifies that conformity doesn’t erase personality but upgrades it into a more Spirit-filled version of who God uniquely made each person to be and previews a future episode on healing.

    Chapters
    00:00 Have You Died Yet?
    01:07 Gods End Goal
    02:11 Prosperity Gospel Light
    03:26 Predestined to Be Like Christ
    05:32 Training for Eternity
    08:14 Come and Die
    09:34 Surrender Your Rights
    11:33 Crucify the Flesh
    14:40 God Finishes the Work
    16:49 Death Brings Upgrade
    19:13 You Keep Your Identity
    21:13 Book Break and Promo
    22:26 Suffering Refines Faith
    31:40 Not Punishment but Surgery
    32:49 Are You Dying Yet?

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    PODCAST DESCRIPTION:

    Welcome to the Singing Through Fire podcast! I’m your host Lara Silverman, and this is where we:

    • Worship when it hurts
    • Discuss hot takes from the furnace of affliction
    • Explore a biblical theology of suffering with a side of sass and sarcasm

    From lamentations to laughter, this podcast is for anyone desperate for hope who has ever asked, "Why, Lord, why?”

    Don’t forget to follow/subscribe because I upload content every Tuesday and Friday!

    "For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all." 2nd Corinthians 4:17.

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    34 mins