Matcha latte, it is so emerald green, like the swift savioress,

like the tablets of Thoth the Atlantean, like drinking fresh spring grasses foamy with your milk,

like the foam on the sand as the waves reach up, shake vigorously and then let go,

leaving their ghosts behind

Things are only forbidden when we try to take without asking,

so we humbly bow and request to turn the wheel,

we travel into the heart and make offerings, freely and generously

There is the experience of fever, terrible pain in the face,

teeth and eyes, the crucifixion, and then there is the terrible fear

of being incapacitated, no ability in this moment to engage

with the outside world, people, places or things.

Angels of Mercy.

everything is either a preparation for the union or the union itself.

now just walking. Every moment is an initiatory portal

I shake when I pick up the texts, I shake with my love, my devotion.

I can’t believe that I have the text right here. I received it

in the proper way. I can see how the teachings were stolen in the past, taken without being given. there is fear, guilt and shame, Some misuse. Somehow he and I participated together. Secret teachings gone awry. confessing and atoning, that is complete. now I walk in the light of day with my love of the teachings and my love of him.

I request the blessing to turn the wheel of dharma

my pure intention for this, for the union with him

the fire of the dakini in the belly melts the concrete view of reality

in the head, and the lotus of compassion grows

in the lake of emptiness that results

every dakini is an electron, orbiting around

the central nucleus of true essence, inchoate Plenitude,

every Buddha has four dakinis, or 10,000, implacable peacefulness, generous guru.

I am guru, I am dakini , the yidam, secret lover,

the one who loves, the one who is beloved, the truest love story

Coming into alignment is an automatic detoxification, purification,

a kind of clash, as the darkness emerges and meets the light,

it comes out swinging and spitting, hitting and grabbing.

More learning, letting it arise without taking over.

Peace, be still, and know that I am God.